Loving my kids...

Holy moly... I realize I complain constantly about my little monsters.. but I truly love them to pieces. I absolutely love that my baby Bridger has this amazing, nostalgic, comforting, wonderful scent of being my baby. I also just love that he says.."amama amama" and reaches up to me with his head slightly cocked to the side and hiding behind his shoulder and then makes this growling face like he's going to bite me if I try.... I love that when we go grocery shopping and a classic rock song comes on... that Bridger starts bopping his head and bouncing up and down to the music because that is what Daddy taught him to do. I love that when he's tired and ready to sleep, that he cuddles up to me and lays perfectly still. I love that Lily has such a sweet, sensitive heart. It can make for a lot of frustration, but when I'm truly in tune, it just helps me take a step back and realize that , "Hey... so maybe I did freak out a little too much at what she just did. Time for a mommy apology." Without her sensitivity... I wouldn't know when to cut back on the strict discipline. I love that she is completely honest with whatever comes to her thoughts. Lately, my favorites have been, "Mommy... I think you need to stop coloring you hair and go back to your natural color. Also... you need to grow it out because I do not like your short hair. Also... have I mentioned I don't like the color? Because I don't." And another favorite was, "Mom, can you make dinner tonight? Like, actually make something with those pots and pans and on top of that stove thing... Like, not use a microwave?" Hahaha! I also love how much she loves her Daddy. She gets sooo excited when she gets to spend the day with Dad! She thinks he is the funnest, coolest person in town and would spend every minute with him if she could. I also love how good she is to her brother. She gets sooo frustrated with him but, to be honest I would have lost my cool a long time ago with him. She is very patient, kind and loves to teach him. I am very blessed to have her as the "big sister" and one day, he'll be grateful too. My kids are so awesome and I love them so much. I just feel like all I have done for the past... well... it's been too long... is complain about how hard it is to be a mom and keep up with it all and be happy about it ALL the time. You know what though? My kids are AWESOME! They are so good to each other, to people around them and to their parents and I am so very proud of them! My hope is that one day, they will be able to look back at their childhood and be content and happy. I hope that they will know who they are and where they came from and exactly what to expect of themselves in everything they do. I want them to remember a happy and loving family that maybe did not have every cool toy or big fancy house... but had each other and loved one another unconditionally. I hope that as my family grows... that one day we can have big family reunions and I can sit in a lawn chair holding Dan's hand while having 20 grandchildren running around and having fun. I hope that I can be a good example to them and teach them what they need to know for this life and the next. Most of all, I want them to know how much I love them.